1 00:00:06,000 --> 00:00:12,074 Advertise your product or brand here contact www.OpenSubtitles.org today 2 00:03:44,526 --> 00:03:46,687 I want you to go away. 3 00:03:47,496 --> 00:03:52,490 I'm selling out to a supermarket, you'll get some of it. 4 00:03:55,371 --> 00:03:56,360 No... 5 00:03:57,840 --> 00:04:00,001 Don't say anything, Wilhelm dear. 6 00:04:00,576 --> 00:04:03,204 Wait till you have to. 7 00:04:05,180 --> 00:04:09,844 And don't lose that unrest and discontent of yours. 8 00:04:11,053 --> 00:04:13,386 You'll need it for writing. 9 00:04:16,059 --> 00:04:18,550 I'm going to enjoy life now. 10 00:04:19,696 --> 00:04:22,688 I'll be smoking when I cross the square. 11 00:04:23,900 --> 00:04:28,428 I'll be drinking a Martini in the Haider Hof... 12 00:04:28,972 --> 00:04:30,735 and reading your letters. 13 00:04:37,280 --> 00:04:40,613 I'll order Martini "with ice please." 14 00:06:00,464 --> 00:06:03,956 I'm not desperate, just listless and fed-up. 15 00:06:04,702 --> 00:06:07,934 It's as if I had no tongue. 16 00:06:08,640 --> 00:06:11,302 I haven't spoken for two days. 17 00:06:12,077 --> 00:06:15,240 Except in my sleep I keep talking, says my mother. 18 00:06:16,248 --> 00:06:17,909 I want to be a writer... 19 00:06:18,183 --> 00:06:21,016 but how, not liking people? 20 00:06:26,424 --> 00:06:29,916 If only I could write. Write! 21 00:06:51,216 --> 00:06:53,878 Have you got an evening show? 22 00:06:53,985 --> 00:06:55,179 No. 23 00:06:57,289 --> 00:06:58,278 Janine. 24 00:06:58,890 --> 00:07:00,687 I wanted to see you again. 25 00:07:03,029 --> 00:07:05,589 I can't look at you in that outfit. 26 00:07:24,917 --> 00:07:26,407 You've got something there. 27 00:07:27,720 --> 00:07:29,210 No, here. 28 00:07:52,812 --> 00:07:54,803 In the course of time... 29 00:08:05,826 --> 00:08:10,661 When I left my home town, it seemed alive for the first time... 30 00:08:10,764 --> 00:08:13,756 though with the dreariness of people left behind. 31 00:08:14,368 --> 00:08:17,769 Janine and the pain she felt because of her clothes... 32 00:08:18,272 --> 00:08:19,830 I had already forgotten. 33 00:08:20,440 --> 00:08:22,533 Mother had packed my suitcase. 34 00:08:22,643 --> 00:08:24,543 On top, she put two books. 35 00:08:24,645 --> 00:08:26,476 "Life of a Good-for-Nothing" by Eichendorff... 36 00:08:26,680 --> 00:08:29,012 and "Sentimental Education" by Flaubert. 37 00:08:30,017 --> 00:08:35,353 I determined not to withdraw my arm if she linked arms... 38 00:08:35,455 --> 00:08:38,686 as I'd always done if anyone came. 39 00:08:40,394 --> 00:08:43,363 In the taxi, she suddenly told me not to be intimidated... 40 00:08:43,463 --> 00:08:47,559 if people pointed out how useful a doctor or carpenter was... 41 00:08:47,668 --> 00:08:49,829 and how useless my life was. 42 00:08:50,404 --> 00:08:55,399 People with restricted professions reminded her of dried-up snails. 43 00:08:56,577 --> 00:09:00,308 I listened, but my mind was already far away. 44 00:09:03,284 --> 00:09:04,444 Your ticket. 45 00:09:06,688 --> 00:09:08,178 In my other hand, Mother. 46 00:09:12,026 --> 00:09:13,516 Why did you choose Bonn? 47 00:09:14,295 --> 00:09:18,288 I leafed through the novel you read recently. 48 00:09:21,336 --> 00:09:25,272 I'm fond of you, Wilhelm. Please don't forget me. 49 00:09:35,049 --> 00:09:39,008 I left her to a fate I didn't believe in myself. 50 00:09:39,754 --> 00:09:43,417 I imagined the taxi-driver asking her... 51 00:09:43,524 --> 00:09:45,754 whether he should take her home. 52 00:09:45,860 --> 00:09:48,090 By herself, she'd have taken the bus. 53 00:09:48,196 --> 00:09:51,928 Suddenly I wanted to comb my hair in the train. 54 00:09:52,034 --> 00:09:55,333 I waited for it to leave. 55 00:09:55,537 --> 00:09:59,268 I would remember her better later... 56 00:09:59,375 --> 00:10:01,639 in some other place. 57 00:10:06,648 --> 00:10:09,776 I soon forgot all about it. 58 00:10:09,885 --> 00:10:11,910 It was a nice, peaceful day. 59 00:10:12,020 --> 00:10:15,854 The gulls that had screamed across the sea were silent. 60 00:10:15,958 --> 00:10:19,951 I remembered too, the canal we were passing. 61 00:10:20,095 --> 00:10:22,256 I began to think ahead... 62 00:10:22,364 --> 00:10:26,357 intending to find out more about myself. 63 00:10:26,902 --> 00:10:30,895 Somebody's nose must have bled on the opposite seat. 64 00:12:12,810 --> 00:12:16,337 "Life of a Good-for-Nothing" by Joseph von Eichendorff 65 00:12:19,550 --> 00:12:20,778 Chapter one: 66 00:12:21,452 --> 00:12:26,253 My father's mill-wheel was splashing merrily... 67 00:12:26,357 --> 00:12:28,723 and snow dripped from the roof... 68 00:12:28,826 --> 00:12:32,785 and sparrows twittered and created a racket. 69 00:12:33,097 --> 00:12:37,033 I sat on the threshold and rubbed the sleep from my eyes. 70 00:12:37,701 --> 00:12:40,397 It felt fine in the warm sunshine. 71 00:12:41,039 --> 00:12:43,030 Father came out of the house. 72 00:12:43,141 --> 00:12:45,871 He'd been busy in the mill... 73 00:12:45,977 --> 00:12:49,640 and his night-cap was askew. 74 00:13:38,030 --> 00:13:39,019 Hey. 75 00:16:44,019 --> 00:16:47,614 The woman that made you so full of longing... 76 00:16:49,091 --> 00:16:50,854 She's Therese Farner. 77 00:16:52,728 --> 00:16:54,218 She's an actress. 78 00:16:57,099 --> 00:16:59,761 You'd like to know why my nose is bleeding? 79 00:17:01,236 --> 00:17:02,726 It comes from remembering. 80 00:17:05,274 --> 00:17:09,267 Maybe I'll tell you about it at breakfast tomorrow. 81 00:17:10,913 --> 00:17:13,814 Do you know the story of St. Januarinus... 82 00:17:13,916 --> 00:17:16,942 whose blood is kept in a Neapolitan church? 83 00:17:19,188 --> 00:17:22,521 It becomes fluid once a year... 84 00:17:23,660 --> 00:17:25,651 on the anniversary of his death. 85 00:17:43,613 --> 00:17:45,103 Where are you going? 86 00:17:46,182 --> 00:17:47,171 To Bonn. 87 00:18:03,032 --> 00:18:05,193 There's only one ticket. 88 00:18:07,036 --> 00:18:08,867 No, no, you aren't dreaming. 89 00:18:10,039 --> 00:18:11,870 Two tickets are missing. 90 00:18:12,909 --> 00:18:16,401 You can get your companions' tickets in the train. 91 00:18:17,814 --> 00:18:22,013 Something terrible happened to me today. 92 00:18:23,053 --> 00:18:25,112 I only pay half for the girl. 93 00:18:25,656 --> 00:18:27,248 I leave the house... 94 00:18:28,592 --> 00:18:32,289 and when I'm outside I notice... 95 00:18:32,396 --> 00:18:35,160 I've forgotten my umbrella. 96 00:18:35,266 --> 00:18:37,757 I opened it up. 97 00:18:37,935 --> 00:18:42,429 I had odd-colored socks on too. 98 00:18:42,573 --> 00:18:45,701 It was indescribable. 99 00:18:46,076 --> 00:18:47,737 Was it raining at all? 100 00:18:49,013 --> 00:18:50,913 No, but that wasrt the point. 101 00:18:59,423 --> 00:19:01,448 I remember that salute from old movie newsreels. 102 00:19:06,363 --> 00:19:09,855 Go on, thank the gentleman for the ticket. 103 00:20:04,656 --> 00:20:05,680 No, no. 104 00:21:28,642 --> 00:21:30,337 Have you decided on something? 105 00:21:32,079 --> 00:21:36,072 I thought maybe 3 minced veals, dumplings and salad. 106 00:21:38,752 --> 00:21:40,982 And one beer and orange juice. 107 00:21:43,457 --> 00:21:46,358 It was Eichinger the conductor who gave me the note. 108 00:21:46,460 --> 00:21:49,657 Carriage 83, compartment 3, window seat. 109 00:21:49,763 --> 00:21:50,991 It can only mean you. 110 00:21:51,198 --> 00:21:52,597 I'm sure it's not me. 111 00:21:53,200 --> 00:21:55,862 Carriage 83, compartment 3 (window seat) 112 00:23:28,197 --> 00:23:29,926 What profession did you give? 113 00:23:30,132 --> 00:23:32,464 I'm a singer... 114 00:23:32,568 --> 00:23:35,594 and she's an artist. 115 00:23:45,714 --> 00:23:49,241 WRITER 116 00:24:03,700 --> 00:24:04,724 Good night. 117 00:24:21,584 --> 00:24:24,075 Seeing that woman this afternoon on the train... 118 00:24:24,187 --> 00:24:26,917 seemed adventure enough to me. 119 00:24:27,023 --> 00:24:31,722 I thought I'd regret it for the rest of my life if I didn't pursue it. 120 00:24:33,930 --> 00:24:38,424 Get me 06351-7270. 121 00:24:44,173 --> 00:24:47,336 But now in this hotel-room with its feather bed... 122 00:24:47,443 --> 00:24:50,003 plastic waste basket and neon light over the sink... 123 00:24:50,113 --> 00:24:52,604 I was as deflated as my surroundings. 124 00:24:53,283 --> 00:24:56,720 I was practicing what I would say on the phone. 125 00:24:56,787 --> 00:25:00,188 Such as: I'm dying to see you. 126 00:25:00,991 --> 00:25:04,449 I decided to shake off the urge and not start blabbing. 127 00:25:04,561 --> 00:25:08,088 If she said nothing, I would say nothing too. 128 00:25:08,832 --> 00:25:10,629 I looked down onto the square. 129 00:25:19,476 --> 00:25:22,309 Suddenly I had the urge to write. 130 00:25:22,579 --> 00:25:25,309 It would take my mind off of her. 131 00:25:26,150 --> 00:25:29,381 This thought dissipated my fear of a new person. 132 00:25:29,486 --> 00:25:35,152 I wanted to know her voice, which I hoped was like her gaze. 133 00:25:35,726 --> 00:25:39,287 Afterwards I'd write it down in detail. 134 00:25:42,833 --> 00:25:45,324 I haven't dreamt for two nights. 135 00:25:46,170 --> 00:25:49,162 I haven't cut my nails for over a week... 136 00:25:50,107 --> 00:25:53,100 and have worn the same shoes for a month. 137 00:25:54,179 --> 00:25:57,171 And I haven't thought of dying for years. 138 00:25:58,350 --> 00:26:02,719 I've always thought things would go on without me, same as ever. 139 00:26:04,723 --> 00:26:09,217 But since I met you, I have known what it feels like. 140 00:26:11,062 --> 00:26:13,121 Couldrt you make a song of it? 141 00:26:15,467 --> 00:26:17,230 If you let me have the poem. 142 00:26:22,073 --> 00:26:26,874 I'll tell you my story soon. Maybe tonight. 143 00:26:31,616 --> 00:26:35,950 Just a hint. I ran in the 1936 Berlin Olympics. 144 00:26:37,288 --> 00:26:39,279 The 100 meters. 145 00:26:39,657 --> 00:26:43,718 And you wouldn't shake hands with Jesse Owens, like your Fuehrer. 146 00:26:45,063 --> 00:26:47,225 I only made the semi-finals. 147 00:26:47,633 --> 00:26:48,622 But... 148 00:26:49,802 --> 00:26:53,795 probably I wouldn't have shaken a black's hand. 149 00:26:54,039 --> 00:26:55,028 What now? 150 00:26:57,943 --> 00:26:59,433 We'd better take a walk. 151 00:27:26,605 --> 00:27:29,438 I intended to start writing today. 152 00:27:30,476 --> 00:27:32,467 But I dreamt so much... 153 00:27:32,578 --> 00:27:35,979 it's impossible to write about anything else. 154 00:27:37,716 --> 00:27:40,207 And just writing up dreams is... 155 00:27:41,954 --> 00:27:44,822 I'd like to be able to write something essential. 156 00:27:45,225 --> 00:27:49,218 Essential as a house, or a glass of wine in the evening. 157 00:27:50,230 --> 00:27:51,891 More essential of course. 158 00:28:33,540 --> 00:28:39,536 On the way here I saw that Germany still has scenery. 159 00:28:39,814 --> 00:28:42,305 I wanted to stop... 160 00:28:43,551 --> 00:28:45,985 but kept on going faster. 161 00:28:47,355 --> 00:28:52,019 I felt like going for a walk with you out of town. 162 00:28:52,593 --> 00:28:54,083 We were doing that! 163 00:30:20,182 --> 00:30:21,774 I wanted to talk to you. 164 00:30:23,118 --> 00:30:25,279 Nothing special, just talk. 165 00:30:28,056 --> 00:30:29,523 But suddenly... 166 00:30:53,650 --> 00:30:55,811 Would you like to be alone with me? 167 00:30:56,252 --> 00:30:57,241 Not now! 168 00:30:59,088 --> 00:31:00,419 It's good... 169 00:31:01,157 --> 00:31:04,649 It's good to be in company, otherwise it would be worse. 170 00:31:06,629 --> 00:31:09,598 This way, I feel I have a secret. 171 00:33:05,150 --> 00:33:08,051 Do you have any idea what pain is? 172 00:33:09,287 --> 00:33:13,621 Do you swine know the rushing of a sailplane... 173 00:33:13,958 --> 00:33:15,186 in your brains? 174 00:33:38,184 --> 00:33:40,015 - Here. - This way. 175 00:34:19,359 --> 00:34:24,353 I like the way everything is so strange to you. 176 00:34:27,434 --> 00:34:29,925 Otherwise you couldn't write. 177 00:34:32,906 --> 00:34:35,238 What I don't like is... 178 00:34:36,576 --> 00:34:39,340 You think only you can be that way. 179 00:34:44,718 --> 00:34:46,709 Others can, too, believe me. 180 00:34:55,462 --> 00:34:56,622 Excuse me. 181 00:34:58,531 --> 00:35:02,194 I heard you reciting poetry in the hotel today. 182 00:35:03,069 --> 00:35:07,130 I write poetry myself, so I followed you. 183 00:35:07,240 --> 00:35:09,231 I'd like your opinion. 184 00:35:11,244 --> 00:35:13,075 May I recite something? 185 00:35:32,099 --> 00:35:34,124 I lay still half asleep. 186 00:35:34,235 --> 00:35:36,396 Then heard the bells ringing. 187 00:35:37,104 --> 00:35:40,699 One struck so hard, as if it struck me. 188 00:35:41,242 --> 00:35:44,769 And the my skin peeled off in misery. 189 00:35:45,246 --> 00:35:49,273 The feeling of not even being a silhouette in the universe... 190 00:35:49,383 --> 00:35:50,975 was terrible. 191 00:35:51,619 --> 00:35:55,020 I felt myself squeezing, jelly-fish-like... 192 00:35:55,122 --> 00:35:57,955 through the spheres. 193 00:35:58,059 --> 00:35:59,617 There's nobody serving here. 194 00:36:04,465 --> 00:36:07,457 A child trod on me, like on snail-festooned... 195 00:36:07,635 --> 00:36:10,570 jellied, rotting fungus. 196 00:36:10,973 --> 00:36:15,967 I yearned to spurt myself into the gutter. 197 00:36:16,678 --> 00:36:22,082 I felt like trembling, transparent veal jelly. 198 00:36:22,951 --> 00:36:26,409 I fell though a trap-door into a last dream... 199 00:36:26,989 --> 00:36:31,926 and hung like well-hung meat on a hook. 200 00:36:32,894 --> 00:36:37,331 And a hanged man with a sign: "I AM A TRAITOR"... 201 00:36:37,432 --> 00:36:41,027 twitched as MYSELF from a plum tree. 202 00:36:41,236 --> 00:36:45,070 From my terror-stricken stiff member there shot sperm... 203 00:36:45,173 --> 00:36:47,664 and dripped upon a white sheet. 204 00:36:47,776 --> 00:36:51,007 Since then I've lived under a glass bell... 205 00:36:51,113 --> 00:36:55,447 and let my rotting consciousness vapour the glass. 206 00:36:57,986 --> 00:37:02,650 Why must there be so vast a space... 207 00:37:03,725 --> 00:37:06,216 between me and the world? 208 00:37:26,215 --> 00:37:27,978 I ought to introduce myself. 209 00:37:28,918 --> 00:37:33,252 My name's Bernard Landau. I'm an Austrian. 210 00:37:34,724 --> 00:37:36,692 I've never amounted to much... 211 00:37:38,394 --> 00:37:40,385 and hope I'll stay that way. 212 00:37:41,697 --> 00:37:44,689 I get injured once a year. 213 00:37:44,901 --> 00:37:47,802 This year I fell on the edge of a chair... 214 00:37:48,004 --> 00:37:50,802 and gashed the corners of my mouth. 215 00:37:50,907 --> 00:37:52,431 It's healed up already. 216 00:37:55,011 --> 00:37:59,175 My uncle owns a big bakery, and a country house. 217 00:38:00,450 --> 00:38:02,441 We could all stay with him. 218 00:38:04,455 --> 00:38:06,616 He wanted to be a composer... 219 00:38:06,723 --> 00:38:09,214 and suffers now and then from being a capitalist. 220 00:38:09,860 --> 00:38:14,194 People like that are the right sort of capitalists. 221 00:39:42,820 --> 00:39:45,914 Put your gun away or we'll shoot. 222 00:39:48,092 --> 00:39:51,084 It's me, Bernard from Vienna. 223 00:39:52,630 --> 00:39:54,222 I've brought some friends. 224 00:39:54,799 --> 00:39:56,665 We'd all like to stay the night. 225 00:40:02,908 --> 00:40:04,739 This isn't my uncle. 226 00:40:06,812 --> 00:40:08,939 And it's the wrong house. 227 00:40:09,548 --> 00:40:11,539 It's the wrong time, too. 228 00:40:12,218 --> 00:40:13,947 I don't actually know you... 229 00:40:14,987 --> 00:40:16,978 but I'm glad you're here. 230 00:40:19,225 --> 00:40:23,559 There's plenty of room. Stay as long as you like. 231 00:40:25,264 --> 00:40:27,528 I'd just shoved the rifle into my mouth... 232 00:40:28,567 --> 00:40:32,731 when I heard the car and waited, hoping that... 233 00:40:33,472 --> 00:40:35,133 it would stop. 234 00:40:37,610 --> 00:40:39,100 I live here all alone. 235 00:40:40,012 --> 00:40:43,175 My wife hung herself three months ago. 236 00:40:44,516 --> 00:40:47,349 That's why everything's in a mess. 237 00:40:47,820 --> 00:40:51,085 I was going to redecorate, change everything. 238 00:40:55,895 --> 00:40:58,455 She often wished for a machine... 239 00:40:58,565 --> 00:41:01,898 to stretch all the tendons of her body. 240 00:41:03,503 --> 00:41:05,027 I couldn't help her. 241 00:41:08,441 --> 00:41:10,932 In the end, I even started praying. 242 00:41:13,446 --> 00:41:15,710 I've been alone long enough. 243 00:41:15,815 --> 00:41:19,148 I feel like reading papers again. 244 00:41:20,487 --> 00:41:21,749 Come into the room. 245 00:41:59,026 --> 00:42:01,221 I'd like to talk about Ioneliness. 246 00:42:02,963 --> 00:42:05,989 I don't believe it exists. 247 00:42:07,368 --> 00:42:12,362 It's more of an artificial feeling engendered from outside. 248 00:42:14,308 --> 00:42:15,502 Once... 249 00:42:15,710 --> 00:42:19,874 I sat in this room in profound idiocy. 250 00:42:20,715 --> 00:42:25,652 Cigarette stubs from the evening before lay in ashtrays. 251 00:42:27,121 --> 00:42:29,851 So I sat there that evening... 252 00:42:30,591 --> 00:42:33,219 as idiotically as today, I thought. 253 00:42:35,363 --> 00:42:38,093 Yesterday I sat there, today here. 254 00:42:39,400 --> 00:42:41,368 And this vision of myself... 255 00:42:41,602 --> 00:42:47,098 touched me so much that I felt myself caressed. 256 00:42:48,076 --> 00:42:49,873 That, then, was Ioneliness. 257 00:42:50,946 --> 00:42:55,178 I was proud with Ioneliness, carried away. 258 00:42:56,318 --> 00:42:58,309 Drenched in Ioneliness. 259 00:43:02,157 --> 00:43:04,591 I produced a similar Ioneliness one night... 260 00:43:05,026 --> 00:43:09,019 while sitting on the terrace. 261 00:43:09,965 --> 00:43:16,063 I drank a bottle of wine and time passed easily. 262 00:43:18,640 --> 00:43:22,303 People strolled along the woods... 263 00:43:23,111 --> 00:43:24,840 and looked across at me. 264 00:43:26,715 --> 00:43:30,207 How Ionely I must seem to them, I thought. 265 00:43:31,019 --> 00:43:33,385 At once I was cradled again... 266 00:43:33,588 --> 00:43:37,251 in artificial, manipulated Ioneliness. 267 00:43:37,993 --> 00:43:40,484 It's just a theatrical state which arises... 268 00:43:41,430 --> 00:43:48,200 the moment you wallow in your own theatricality. 269 00:43:49,338 --> 00:43:50,396 And yet... 270 00:43:50,773 --> 00:43:55,608 it's these moments of hypocritical Ioneliness... 271 00:43:56,212 --> 00:43:57,941 that make me feel reborn. 272 00:43:59,415 --> 00:44:02,009 It's the paradox of Ioneliness. 273 00:44:03,453 --> 00:44:08,288 The overwhelming feeling of security... 274 00:44:09,459 --> 00:44:11,120 I then experience. 275 00:44:27,310 --> 00:44:29,801 You were going to reveal your secret to us. 276 00:44:31,714 --> 00:44:36,208 I'm too tired. Let's put it off till tomorrow during our walk. 277 00:44:37,253 --> 00:44:38,618 Come, Mignon. 278 00:44:46,330 --> 00:44:50,232 Her name's Mignon? I never knew that. 279 00:44:50,334 --> 00:44:51,824 You never asked her. 280 00:44:52,769 --> 00:44:55,602 She's been waiting for you to ask for ages. 281 00:45:06,617 --> 00:45:07,777 Wilhelm. 282 00:45:11,288 --> 00:45:15,952 I'm going upstairs now. Will you be coming? 283 00:45:16,126 --> 00:45:17,616 You know I will. 284 00:45:18,962 --> 00:45:20,725 I'll stay down here for a while. 285 00:45:22,099 --> 00:45:24,590 I'm dissatisfied because I've written nothing today. 286 00:45:28,038 --> 00:45:30,029 He's written a poem already. 287 00:45:32,543 --> 00:45:35,377 But I don't want to remain unsatisfied. 288 00:45:38,249 --> 00:45:39,580 Look in on me. 289 00:45:40,718 --> 00:45:41,810 And I'm glad... 290 00:45:45,056 --> 00:45:47,047 I found you people. 291 00:45:58,603 --> 00:45:59,592 Good night. 292 00:46:44,116 --> 00:46:46,175 A self-portrait of my wife. 293 00:46:49,254 --> 00:46:51,245 I'd just like to talk a bit... 294 00:46:51,957 --> 00:46:55,916 about Ioneliness in Germany. 295 00:46:57,997 --> 00:47:00,989 I think it's more hidden and... 296 00:47:01,200 --> 00:47:05,864 more distressing than elsewhere. 297 00:47:07,806 --> 00:47:11,799 Maybe the history of ideas here is responsible... 298 00:47:13,145 --> 00:47:17,479 which made people seek a way of life... 299 00:47:18,017 --> 00:47:20,679 that could help overcome fear. 300 00:47:22,755 --> 00:47:24,985 The propagation of virtues like... 301 00:47:25,090 --> 00:47:27,820 courage, fortitude... 302 00:47:28,228 --> 00:47:30,719 meant to distract attention from fear. 303 00:47:31,965 --> 00:47:35,093 Let's say it was that way. 304 00:47:36,436 --> 00:47:40,770 More than anywhere else philosophy could be used... 305 00:47:40,974 --> 00:47:43,841 as an ideology... 306 00:47:43,977 --> 00:47:47,572 so that the criminal methods required... 307 00:47:47,681 --> 00:47:52,675 to overcome fear could be legalized. 308 00:47:54,454 --> 00:47:57,685 Fear was considered vain... 309 00:47:58,692 --> 00:48:00,523 and shameful. 310 00:48:03,730 --> 00:48:07,188 That's why Ioneliness in Germany is... 311 00:48:07,300 --> 00:48:11,293 masked by all those revealing soulless faces... 312 00:48:12,272 --> 00:48:16,936 that haunt supermarkets, recreation areas... 313 00:48:17,043 --> 00:48:20,206 pedestrian zones and fitness-centers. 314 00:48:21,915 --> 00:48:26,012 The dead souls of Germany. 315 00:48:27,655 --> 00:48:31,648 A boy should know no fear, my parents said. 316 00:48:32,893 --> 00:48:35,885 I refuse to overcome my fear. 317 00:48:43,370 --> 00:48:46,862 I hope you will enjoy it here. 318 00:48:47,641 --> 00:48:52,237 It was very touching to see the way you listened to me. 319 00:49:27,783 --> 00:49:31,412 Maybe a person can want to write without knowing what. 320 00:49:31,620 --> 00:49:35,681 Just like you want to walk. 321 00:49:35,924 --> 00:49:38,620 Wanting to write is the need. 322 00:49:39,361 --> 00:49:42,524 Not loving, but wanting to love. 323 00:49:43,732 --> 00:49:45,222 I'm going upstairs now. 324 00:52:01,872 --> 00:52:03,203 Are you in there? 325 00:54:13,106 --> 00:54:15,097 I dreamt I was skating. 326 00:54:22,082 --> 00:54:24,016 On a frozen sea. 327 00:54:27,020 --> 00:54:28,681 It was the North Sea. 328 00:54:33,760 --> 00:54:35,785 I was quite a way out... 329 00:54:39,599 --> 00:54:41,430 and couldn't get back... 330 00:54:43,269 --> 00:54:48,263 and kept skating straight on. 331 00:54:50,410 --> 00:54:52,071 I was very afraid. 332 00:54:54,414 --> 00:54:56,507 The worst was... 333 00:54:56,616 --> 00:54:59,107 the grating of the runners... 334 00:55:01,355 --> 00:55:03,550 on the ice behind me. 335 00:55:07,628 --> 00:55:12,622 I kept thinking it wasrt my dream at all. 336 00:55:27,515 --> 00:55:29,415 I dreamt you had to die. 337 00:55:33,554 --> 00:55:36,284 A few hours before your expected death... 338 00:55:36,390 --> 00:55:39,553 you were to go and prepare yourself in a mausoleum... 339 00:55:40,561 --> 00:55:42,825 below the main street. 340 00:55:45,166 --> 00:55:48,533 A child was to keep you company till you died. 341 00:55:50,604 --> 00:55:52,333 The child stood next to you... 342 00:55:54,175 --> 00:55:57,839 and the mausoleum was sealed with a large stone. 343 00:56:02,117 --> 00:56:04,847 I dreamt of absolute darkness... 344 00:56:07,088 --> 00:56:09,579 in which the child stood next to you... 345 00:56:11,493 --> 00:56:12,687 till you died. 346 00:56:17,365 --> 00:56:18,855 It was my child. 347 00:56:21,703 --> 00:56:25,434 I dreamt I lay on the bed in my room... 348 00:56:27,008 --> 00:56:30,842 seeing the wall with the door the whole time. 349 00:56:32,781 --> 00:56:34,510 I kept waking up... 350 00:56:35,550 --> 00:56:39,543 and really seeing the wall with the door in front of me. 351 00:56:41,423 --> 00:56:45,519 I fell asleep and dreamed of it again... 352 00:56:45,994 --> 00:56:50,988 almost exactly the way I'd really seen it. 353 00:56:53,502 --> 00:56:57,734 Except it was nearer. 354 00:57:00,543 --> 00:57:02,033 I had to vomit. 355 00:57:15,258 --> 00:57:20,252 I'm sorry. Now it's daylight. I can't remember my dream... 356 00:57:21,597 --> 00:57:25,089 though it gave me a start when I reached... 357 00:57:25,768 --> 00:57:28,931 for the sugar bowl. I almost remembered. 358 00:57:31,641 --> 00:57:33,768 It seems so significant. 359 00:57:37,613 --> 00:57:38,875 And you, Mignon? 360 00:57:43,686 --> 00:57:45,916 She finds dreams ridiculous. 361 00:58:24,027 --> 00:58:27,656 A man screams at me frenziedly. 362 00:58:28,432 --> 00:58:31,629 "Now I've got you, Rosenthal." 363 00:58:33,337 --> 00:58:36,773 He grabs me by the collar. 364 00:58:36,940 --> 00:58:40,273 And bashes four teeth in. 365 00:58:40,377 --> 00:58:43,437 Then that man spits in my face. 366 00:58:43,714 --> 00:58:46,775 I think to myself: "Who cares?" 367 00:58:47,018 --> 00:58:49,748 My name's not even Rosenthal. 368 00:58:50,521 --> 00:58:53,513 I couldn't care less. 369 00:58:54,525 --> 00:58:57,892 When it's my turn to die. 370 00:58:58,596 --> 00:59:01,861 I'll enter the coffin cheerfully. 371 00:59:02,533 --> 00:59:04,967 And because I have so many friends. 372 00:59:05,870 --> 00:59:08,498 I'll lie there upside down. 373 00:59:10,141 --> 00:59:13,133 My belly I will hold quite still. 374 00:59:13,945 --> 00:59:17,108 And think whatever I like. 375 00:59:17,882 --> 00:59:20,715 Maybe someone will drop in. 376 00:59:21,953 --> 00:59:25,013 I couldn't care less. 377 00:59:52,117 --> 00:59:56,110 Can a person write if he's estranged from politics? 378 00:59:58,323 --> 01:00:01,815 If he could describe how the estrangement came about. 379 01:00:02,694 --> 01:00:05,185 It shouldn't appear natural. 380 01:00:06,265 --> 01:00:08,756 That's the history of the Western World. 381 01:00:09,268 --> 01:00:10,428 Of course! 382 01:00:16,008 --> 01:00:20,604 Politics really escaped me when I started writing. 383 01:00:22,548 --> 01:00:26,712 I tried to write politically, and realized words failed me. 384 01:00:26,819 --> 01:00:29,947 The words there meant nothing to me. 385 01:00:30,289 --> 01:00:34,453 I thought, it's not part of me. 386 01:00:36,328 --> 01:00:38,820 I wrote as progressive politicians speak. 387 01:00:39,499 --> 01:00:40,488 Only... 388 01:00:40,967 --> 01:00:44,960 more helpless and pointed, because I was inactive. 389 01:00:45,572 --> 01:00:47,631 It was helplessness. 390 01:00:47,740 --> 01:00:51,073 A good reason to be politically active... 391 01:00:52,178 --> 01:00:53,770 and drop writing altogether. 392 01:00:54,447 --> 01:00:57,109 But it was writing that made me realize... 393 01:00:57,851 --> 01:01:01,014 I couldn't formulate my needs politically. 394 01:01:01,855 --> 01:01:05,313 Politicians never aroused them, only poets. 395 01:01:08,661 --> 01:01:13,325 What are our personal needs to the world? 396 01:01:14,734 --> 01:01:17,430 Everybody has personal needs. They're real. 397 01:01:17,537 --> 01:01:21,029 For me that's all there is. 398 01:01:21,941 --> 01:01:23,670 But they're unfulfillable... 399 01:01:25,111 --> 01:01:28,945 compared with the needs that politics deal with. 400 01:01:37,358 --> 01:01:38,347 Lf... 401 01:01:40,027 --> 01:01:42,689 If only politics and poetry... 402 01:01:43,564 --> 01:01:45,054 could be united. 403 01:01:48,602 --> 01:01:52,595 That would mean the end of longing and the world. 404 01:02:02,917 --> 01:02:05,750 I saw you during the night... 405 01:02:06,720 --> 01:02:10,679 lying on the floor with a sort of whip in your hand. 406 01:02:11,625 --> 01:02:13,286 What is your penance for? 407 01:02:17,898 --> 01:02:19,729 It's time we heard your story. 408 01:02:25,639 --> 01:02:30,440 Just now on the terrace I sang a Jew's song. 409 01:02:32,948 --> 01:02:33,937 Your friend's? 410 01:02:34,816 --> 01:02:36,044 I killed him. 411 01:02:39,354 --> 01:02:41,845 Remember the salute the conductor gave... 412 01:02:42,891 --> 01:02:45,758 when he left me on the train? 413 01:02:47,762 --> 01:02:49,753 He was my aide in Vilna. 414 01:02:52,367 --> 01:02:56,098 I saved some Jews, if they were professionally qualified. 415 01:03:06,715 --> 01:03:07,977 Can you swim? 416 01:03:09,017 --> 01:03:11,110 How do you know I can't? 417 01:03:12,921 --> 01:03:14,354 I was hoping so. 418 01:03:21,363 --> 01:03:24,696 I feel like I had seven-league boots on. 419 01:03:27,269 --> 01:03:30,602 I even understand your revulsion against politics, Wilhelm. 420 01:03:35,077 --> 01:03:38,911 Nature is life to me. 421 01:03:44,153 --> 01:03:46,644 It makes me forget what ever was. 422 01:03:48,958 --> 01:03:51,290 Those innocent camp fires of my youth. 423 01:03:52,428 --> 01:03:56,387 We cast sticks to foretell the future. 424 01:03:57,266 --> 01:04:00,258 The way we leapt laughing through the fire without a care. 425 01:04:02,672 --> 01:04:06,665 We got fun out of fire-baked potatoes... 426 01:04:08,477 --> 01:04:10,604 whereas the spoilt kids of today... 427 01:04:11,113 --> 01:04:17,109 think it's adventurous to roast a suckling pig in their parents' gardens. 428 01:05:27,825 --> 01:05:31,124 I'm trying to remember my dream. 429 01:05:34,332 --> 01:05:36,391 I know it's about my uncle. 430 01:05:43,341 --> 01:05:46,833 I've just thought of a short poem. 431 01:05:48,312 --> 01:05:49,802 A sort of Haiku. 432 01:05:51,349 --> 01:05:54,944 In writing, observatiors better than inspiration. 433 01:05:55,052 --> 01:05:56,952 Want to hear it, or don't you? 434 01:05:58,089 --> 01:06:00,284 I just thought up a story. 435 01:06:01,292 --> 01:06:02,520 Tell us! 436 01:06:04,295 --> 01:06:05,956 You say your poem first. 437 01:06:07,732 --> 01:06:09,097 It's called "Lovingly." 438 01:06:13,237 --> 01:06:14,261 Lovingly. 439 01:06:16,575 --> 01:06:22,810 Lovingly the mother watches her children eat. 440 01:06:25,117 --> 01:06:27,051 A poem by Bernard Landau. 441 01:06:28,654 --> 01:06:29,643 Very good. 442 01:06:32,624 --> 01:06:35,616 My story runs something like this: 443 01:06:37,996 --> 01:06:40,988 He finally got around to saying he loved her. 444 01:06:41,934 --> 01:06:44,562 Just the moment he said "I love you"... 445 01:06:45,037 --> 01:06:48,996 she chanced to use a toothpick. He hated her forever from then on. 446 01:06:49,441 --> 01:06:51,033 Did he marry her, then? 447 01:06:51,276 --> 01:06:54,336 Of course, once he said he loved her. 448 01:06:55,948 --> 01:06:58,610 You must bring that in, it rounds the story off. 449 01:07:00,285 --> 01:07:02,617 Otherwise, it's just a punchline. 450 01:07:02,955 --> 01:07:05,389 Then again, I'd give them names. 451 01:07:06,525 --> 01:07:08,493 "He" and "She"... 452 01:07:10,095 --> 01:07:11,926 are just comic figures. 453 01:07:12,364 --> 01:07:13,559 What names? 454 01:07:13,967 --> 01:07:15,264 Anton and Martha. 455 01:07:19,105 --> 01:07:23,599 Anton was finally able to tell Martha the he loved her. 456 01:07:24,711 --> 01:07:26,702 It has the markings of a novel. 457 01:08:10,324 --> 01:08:12,155 You didn't look for me. 458 01:08:13,761 --> 01:08:15,888 Yes, I did look for you. 459 01:08:20,968 --> 01:08:25,667 Your face is all soft. You really are sad. 460 01:08:27,207 --> 01:08:28,174 Yes. 461 01:08:29,610 --> 01:08:31,271 Don't say what you're thinking. 462 01:08:33,747 --> 01:08:35,647 You had so much to tell. 463 01:08:43,791 --> 01:08:45,816 I want to be alone with you today. 464 01:08:46,560 --> 01:08:49,222 I'm not afraid anymore. 465 01:08:51,665 --> 01:08:55,465 I made up that dream about skating. 466 01:08:56,537 --> 01:08:58,198 I just felt that way. 467 01:08:58,739 --> 01:09:03,233 I realized and looked away while you were telling it. 468 01:09:05,747 --> 01:09:08,910 Did you see those feathers on the path? 469 01:09:09,284 --> 01:09:11,218 Yes. Why? 470 01:09:11,987 --> 01:09:13,477 Did you notice anything? 471 01:09:14,756 --> 01:09:16,417 I didn't look properly. 472 01:09:17,025 --> 01:09:19,186 There was a yellow beak, too. 473 01:09:21,997 --> 01:09:24,488 There's a lot you don't notice. 474 01:09:26,334 --> 01:09:30,327 True. I usually have to make a conscious effort. 475 01:09:30,839 --> 01:09:33,933 Everybody else notices more details than me. 476 01:09:36,111 --> 01:09:38,409 Yet you want to be a writer? 477 01:09:39,848 --> 01:09:43,340 I know I haven't got so-called powers of observation. 478 01:09:44,719 --> 01:09:45,981 But I believe I have... 479 01:09:48,623 --> 01:09:51,524 the gift of a sort of erotic insight. 480 01:09:52,327 --> 01:09:54,921 Suddenly I notice something that I've always missed... 481 01:09:55,130 --> 01:09:58,622 and not only see it, but get a feel for it. 482 01:09:59,868 --> 01:10:01,859 That's what I call erotic insight. 483 01:10:03,205 --> 01:10:06,368 I then write what I experience... 484 01:10:06,475 --> 01:10:09,035 not just observations. 485 01:10:10,446 --> 01:10:13,938 That's why I want to be a writer. 486 01:10:56,725 --> 01:10:59,024 Something ought to happen. 487 01:11:01,598 --> 01:11:03,793 Everything is so matter-of-fact. 488 01:11:05,202 --> 01:11:07,534 Finished. Closed-up. 489 01:11:11,341 --> 01:11:13,468 I don't feel like walking anymore. 490 01:11:14,845 --> 01:11:19,043 I feel we're putting things off. Let's do something. 491 01:11:34,297 --> 01:11:36,288 Have you ever wanted to kill someone? 492 01:11:36,733 --> 01:11:37,722 No. 493 01:11:41,304 --> 01:11:42,293 I have. 494 01:11:44,508 --> 01:11:47,238 As a child I had a bloodlust. 495 01:11:49,779 --> 01:11:52,270 I've got it right now. 496 01:11:54,117 --> 01:11:59,283 I wouldn't need a weapon, just my bare hands. 497 01:12:02,260 --> 01:12:03,386 What do you mean? 498 01:12:06,998 --> 01:12:08,659 I know what you mean. 499 01:12:13,571 --> 01:12:15,562 I've just thought of my dream. 500 01:12:16,774 --> 01:12:19,265 Our host ran along a coast road. 501 01:12:19,744 --> 01:12:23,111 A camera-man pursued him. Our host shouted: 502 01:12:23,514 --> 01:12:26,312 "Long live the world's exploited masses!" 503 01:12:27,852 --> 01:12:31,845 Then he leapt over the side and plunged down. 504 01:12:33,291 --> 01:12:34,781 Far below was the sea. 505 01:12:35,226 --> 01:12:37,490 - I had to look at the film as a witness... - Let's go. 506 01:12:37,628 --> 01:12:39,789 Let's go. I'm scared. 507 01:12:42,300 --> 01:12:44,598 The one the camera-man... 508 01:15:06,180 --> 01:15:08,341 At times I stared into space... 509 01:15:09,183 --> 01:15:11,344 without seeing a thing. 510 01:15:12,686 --> 01:15:14,517 Then I shut my eyes... 511 01:15:15,122 --> 01:15:18,387 and only realized what was before me... 512 01:15:18,592 --> 01:15:20,583 by the after-image that resulted. 513 01:15:21,362 --> 01:15:25,321 When I'm writing, too, I shut my eyes and see things... 514 01:15:25,466 --> 01:15:27,991 I couldn't see with my eyes open. 515 01:16:19,988 --> 01:16:23,480 After the industrialist's suicide, whose presence stimulated me... 516 01:16:23,591 --> 01:16:25,684 it seemed we had lost direction. 517 01:16:26,261 --> 01:16:27,751 The journey through Germany... 518 01:16:27,896 --> 01:16:30,956 which I felt was a kind of adventure and work... 519 01:16:31,065 --> 01:16:32,430 was called off... 520 01:16:32,600 --> 01:16:35,592 and we moved in an idiotic panic. 521 01:16:36,371 --> 01:16:41,241 Bernard disappeared without explanation from a motorway cafe. 522 01:16:41,944 --> 01:16:45,607 We others stuck together, but seemed to be moving apart. 523 01:16:52,755 --> 01:16:56,282 Can you still run as fast as in the Olympics? 524 01:17:40,737 --> 01:17:43,638 In the evening, we reached Taunus... 525 01:17:43,740 --> 01:17:47,005 where Therese had a 10th floor apartment. 526 01:17:48,945 --> 01:17:50,913 Feces lay in the lobby... 527 01:17:51,014 --> 01:17:53,983 and the elevator was scrawled with genital symbols... 528 01:17:54,084 --> 01:17:55,517 scratched in the woodwork. 529 01:17:55,619 --> 01:17:58,747 Therese said she's only just moved in. 530 01:17:59,155 --> 01:18:01,851 Her appartment walls were still unplastered. 531 01:18:01,958 --> 01:18:04,518 I wanted to sleep with her. 532 01:18:05,028 --> 01:18:07,053 But maybe it was just an urge... 533 01:18:07,163 --> 01:18:10,530 to get a grip on things. 534 01:18:11,167 --> 01:18:14,432 My aimless rage was directed at the old man. 535 01:18:14,538 --> 01:18:17,200 I used his past as an excuse to myself. 536 01:19:04,989 --> 01:19:06,980 She's not a child anymore. 537 01:19:08,225 --> 01:19:09,214 I know. 538 01:19:11,228 --> 01:19:12,217 What? 539 01:19:13,497 --> 01:19:14,691 Know what? 540 01:19:16,500 --> 01:19:18,991 Everything. I could tell at once. 541 01:19:21,639 --> 01:19:23,129 Never mind. 542 01:19:27,446 --> 01:19:29,277 I envy you, Wilhelm. 543 01:19:34,519 --> 01:19:35,508 Me? 544 01:19:37,389 --> 01:19:40,620 You usually don't bother about anything. 545 01:19:49,635 --> 01:19:51,626 I know it's unpleasant for you... 546 01:19:53,005 --> 01:19:55,496 but I can't help liking you. 547 01:19:57,809 --> 01:19:58,798 Why? 548 01:20:02,214 --> 01:20:03,340 Sorry. 549 01:20:11,056 --> 01:20:13,047 You know what I think is funny? 550 01:20:15,394 --> 01:20:18,329 Just now your stubble was scratching me... 551 01:20:20,899 --> 01:20:23,767 and I felt your lips panting on my shoulder. 552 01:20:26,873 --> 01:20:29,637 And now you're making that serious face. 553 01:20:34,447 --> 01:20:35,937 You're ridi... 554 01:20:37,016 --> 01:20:40,008 Your objective pose is ridiculous, you know. 555 01:20:52,398 --> 01:20:55,629 Instead of becoming desperate, I got more stupid. 556 01:20:55,735 --> 01:20:58,932 So I just looked stupidly at really desperate people. 557 01:20:59,472 --> 01:21:04,466 But still, I moved like a hero bearing the world's cares. 558 01:21:18,424 --> 01:21:20,859 I have to pay 20 marks extra? 559 01:21:20,961 --> 01:21:23,725 That's impossible. 560 01:21:23,831 --> 01:21:26,800 - Yes. - Yes. 561 01:21:26,900 --> 01:21:29,061 All the homework. I'm sick of them. 562 01:21:29,169 --> 01:21:33,572 Math... 2-page essay... 563 01:21:41,448 --> 01:21:44,815 I couldn't understand how all these people in the supermarkets... 564 01:21:44,918 --> 01:21:48,251 on playgrounds, behind the windows of the high-rises... 565 01:21:48,355 --> 01:21:52,018 in this country, not only in this country, put up with life. 566 01:23:31,427 --> 01:23:33,395 Are you learning quantities? 567 01:23:33,495 --> 01:23:35,156 Deadly dull. 568 01:23:35,764 --> 01:23:39,632 Quantity A plus quantity B equals quantity C. 569 01:23:40,135 --> 01:23:42,695 I have a friend on the 3rd floor. 570 01:23:42,805 --> 01:23:44,397 Mine's the 8th. 571 01:23:44,506 --> 01:23:48,101 I used to have one in the penthouse. 572 01:24:59,582 --> 01:25:02,449 Everything strikes me as nonsensical. 573 01:25:07,191 --> 01:25:11,252 No sooner do I try to learn my part in the play... 574 01:25:12,997 --> 01:25:14,828 when I see this matchbox... 575 01:25:16,334 --> 01:25:19,997 and wonder why it isn't in the play, too. 576 01:25:22,006 --> 01:25:23,837 It's so artificial... 577 01:25:24,542 --> 01:25:27,978 expressing oneself with other people's words. 578 01:25:28,245 --> 01:25:30,736 Only when I keep remembering... 579 01:25:32,149 --> 01:25:34,947 does a text sometimes make sense. 580 01:25:37,154 --> 01:25:38,985 Because I remember... 581 01:25:40,558 --> 01:25:42,924 experiencing something similiar... 582 01:25:44,562 --> 01:25:46,154 I had just forgotten. 583 01:25:46,630 --> 01:25:48,996 If I remember... 584 01:25:49,166 --> 01:25:52,658 I can act without that suffocating feeling... 585 01:25:52,770 --> 01:25:55,762 the feeling I always have. 586 01:25:59,043 --> 01:26:03,037 After this memory work I enjoy acting... 587 01:26:03,782 --> 01:26:05,841 and I am happy. 588 01:26:06,184 --> 01:26:10,746 More often I don't get to remember and act like a robot. 589 01:26:15,293 --> 01:26:19,286 In the last show I suddenly got stuck... 590 01:26:21,033 --> 01:26:23,866 though I knew the text perfectly... 591 01:26:26,038 --> 01:26:28,336 and the prompter whispered it. 592 01:26:31,543 --> 01:26:34,740 Parrot repetition is humiliating. 593 01:26:35,747 --> 01:26:37,476 I always thought. 594 01:26:38,617 --> 01:26:39,948 Are you listening? 595 01:26:40,886 --> 01:26:44,049 Parrot repetition is humiliating. 596 01:26:54,232 --> 01:26:56,723 Help me, or leave me, Wilhelm! 597 01:26:59,472 --> 01:27:02,805 It's disgusting the way everything leaves you cold. 598 01:27:03,643 --> 01:27:05,975 Yesterday you envied me. 599 01:27:12,385 --> 01:27:14,876 But today it makes me sick. 600 01:27:16,589 --> 01:27:18,614 I could... 601 01:27:19,192 --> 01:27:20,352 Kill me. 602 01:27:21,594 --> 01:27:22,754 Go ahead. 603 01:27:24,130 --> 01:27:25,961 Maybe I can learn something from you. 604 01:27:28,134 --> 01:27:29,761 Beat me to death. 605 01:28:07,141 --> 01:28:11,077 You disrupt my writing. 606 01:28:23,624 --> 01:28:26,957 You talk about yourself and difficulties in working, not realizing... 607 01:28:27,127 --> 01:28:28,958 I'm actually working. 608 01:28:30,164 --> 01:28:33,497 Then I'm like you and the matchbox that isn't in the text. 609 01:28:33,567 --> 01:28:37,401 And I can't go on writing, because I feel... 610 01:28:41,775 --> 01:28:45,677 What you've just said should appear in my writing. 611 01:28:47,080 --> 01:28:50,744 So, leave me in peace. 612 01:28:51,886 --> 01:28:53,410 You werert even listening. 613 01:28:53,555 --> 01:28:58,549 I was, but I kept thinking I was losing writing time. 614 01:29:03,331 --> 01:29:04,662 You're a jerk! 615 01:29:15,510 --> 01:29:19,002 Don't say that, Therese. 616 01:29:30,225 --> 01:29:31,487 Say something. 617 01:29:32,927 --> 01:29:35,054 You look revolting when you're silent. 618 01:29:38,933 --> 01:29:40,867 What are you writing? 619 01:29:43,938 --> 01:29:47,739 I'm writing the story of a man who is a kindly man... 620 01:29:49,144 --> 01:29:53,046 but also incapable of any kind of pity. 621 01:29:53,282 --> 01:29:57,116 I aim to prove that kindliness and pitilessness go together. 622 01:29:58,587 --> 01:30:00,646 I think it'll turn out political. 623 01:30:02,291 --> 01:30:05,283 Where can you go boating around here? 624 01:30:07,229 --> 01:30:08,218 On the Main. 625 01:30:09,431 --> 01:30:13,265 In that case, we'll go boating tomorrow and take the old man. 626 01:30:14,570 --> 01:30:15,764 We'll leave Mignon here. 627 01:30:16,705 --> 01:30:19,196 She'll have to get used to being alone. 628 01:30:23,612 --> 01:30:25,603 He committed suicide. 629 01:30:26,482 --> 01:30:31,476 He hung himself in the room behind the pastor's apartment. 630 01:30:31,587 --> 01:30:33,384 It was a terrible end. 631 01:30:34,857 --> 01:30:37,485 I couldn't help Therese. 632 01:30:37,593 --> 01:30:39,220 My work was merely an excuse... 633 01:30:39,328 --> 01:30:42,491 though I knew it didn't deserve the name of work. 634 01:30:42,598 --> 01:30:45,432 I was discouraged and in my un-liveliness... 635 01:30:46,002 --> 01:30:49,301 I could only act big in front of her. 636 01:30:52,609 --> 01:30:54,270 Are we rowing here? 637 01:31:02,652 --> 01:31:04,142 Wilhelm. 638 01:31:06,323 --> 01:31:08,154 I've changed a lot since then. 639 01:31:11,428 --> 01:31:13,919 It's not just that I sleep on the bare floor. 640 01:31:14,431 --> 01:31:16,331 I have a back pain, as is. 641 01:31:18,635 --> 01:31:20,694 The times were different. 642 01:31:23,239 --> 01:31:24,831 You must understand. 643 01:31:36,586 --> 01:31:41,581 We differentiated, like you, between the natural and politics... 644 01:31:42,360 --> 01:31:45,693 and our natural defense against politics... 645 01:31:45,796 --> 01:31:48,026 led to atrocious politics. 646 01:32:02,213 --> 01:32:03,874 Are you sure you can't swim? 647 01:32:04,014 --> 01:32:05,174 Wilhelm! 648 01:32:06,884 --> 01:32:09,045 Please, Wilhelm! 649 01:32:11,021 --> 01:32:14,548 Let me live, Wilhelm! 650 01:32:15,159 --> 01:32:18,322 Wilhelm, I know you want to go on. Take me with you! 651 01:32:18,462 --> 01:32:19,952 I can imitate animals. 652 01:32:22,566 --> 01:32:25,501 And I'm a good cook, too. Liver dumplings, halibut... 653 01:32:26,036 --> 01:32:27,799 Now I've got you, Rosenthal! 654 01:32:27,905 --> 01:32:29,338 Now I've got you. 655 01:32:29,807 --> 01:32:31,798 Wilhelm! Wilhelm! 656 01:32:43,388 --> 01:32:46,516 The water used to be pure and clear here, right? 657 01:33:26,765 --> 01:33:29,233 The cat was different in those days. 658 01:33:59,465 --> 01:34:01,092 When are you leaving? 659 01:34:02,068 --> 01:34:03,160 Tomorrow. 660 01:34:04,937 --> 01:34:06,427 How did you find out? 661 01:34:09,742 --> 01:34:12,233 You've been making slips lately. 662 01:34:14,146 --> 01:34:17,673 That made me realize your thoughts were elsewhere. 663 01:34:19,819 --> 01:34:21,309 Where'll you go? 664 01:34:24,357 --> 01:34:27,349 I've just seen a photo of the Zugspitze in the paper. 665 01:34:29,363 --> 01:34:33,299 I've never been up a mountain as high as that. 666 01:34:34,635 --> 01:34:36,865 There's a cog-railway that goes up. 667 01:34:42,442 --> 01:34:44,433 What if I ask you to stay? 668 01:35:04,331 --> 01:35:07,164 I know I shall love you very much one day. 669 01:35:08,168 --> 01:35:09,135 Therese. 670 01:35:13,807 --> 01:35:16,674 Mignon, I'm leaving tomorrow. 671 01:35:17,911 --> 01:35:20,072 You must decide for yourself what to do. 672 01:35:20,981 --> 01:35:23,176 Your friend's decision-making is over. 673 01:35:33,194 --> 01:35:34,684 So how do we part now? 674 01:35:36,364 --> 01:35:38,127 Somewhere in the crowd. 675 01:35:47,375 --> 01:35:48,535 Where is your crowd? 676 01:35:50,445 --> 01:35:52,345 I'm disappointed, too. 677 01:35:53,047 --> 01:35:55,038 I thought it would be so crowded... 678 01:35:55,383 --> 01:35:57,715 we couldn't walk alongside each other. 679 01:36:00,455 --> 01:36:02,013 Shall we meet again? 680 01:36:02,790 --> 01:36:04,280 It's absolutely essential. 681 01:36:27,983 --> 01:36:32,477 Parents child at the nursery... 682 01:36:32,588 --> 01:36:36,217 please come to pick up your child. 683 01:36:36,325 --> 01:36:41,228 Parents child at the nursery... 684 01:36:41,330 --> 01:36:43,662 are kindly asked to pick up their child. 685 01:37:16,465 --> 01:37:18,696 I told Therese I intended to stay in Germany... 686 01:37:18,802 --> 01:37:22,238 because I knew too little to write about it. 687 01:37:22,405 --> 01:37:24,373 It was only an excuse. 688 01:37:24,474 --> 01:37:29,070 I really just wanted so much to live my stupid life alone. 689 01:37:29,612 --> 01:37:33,104 I was waiting for an experience like a miracle. 690 01:37:33,416 --> 01:37:35,179 But there was no snowstorm. 691 01:37:35,819 --> 01:37:39,550 Why had I run away, why wasrt I back there with the others? 692 01:37:39,656 --> 01:37:43,649 Why did I threaten the old man instead of listening to his tale? 693 01:37:43,760 --> 01:37:46,126 I felt I had missed out somehow... 694 01:37:46,229 --> 01:37:50,222 and was still missing out with every new movement. 695 01:37:51,305 --> 01:37:57,568 Support us and become VIP member to remove all ads from OpenSubtitles.org